I really wonder how you feel on these nights so alone

“life will be better in spring”

Back from HK! :)

Monday, May 21, 2012 || 12:46 AM

hello everyone! :D i'm back from HK for a week already hahaha!

lazy lazy me as usual. just stay home and nua.

i haven't been sending out any resumes (FML!) since my HK trip and i keep hallucinating that all the good jobs are being taken away by my peers already :(

but i'm just too fearful of opening all the job sites and looking at my resume (which I thought I did alright since I scored well for it for ES) it makes me depressed :/

nevertheless will do a full blown HK trip blog post when I have the time (i'm catching up on my Rooftop Prince episodes now, where got time!? LOL) but just some things that i've been doing daily every since i came back from HK.

this is now on my bf's car seatbelt! :D cute anot~ mine is scrump :)

the immediate monday upon returning i went for facial with my mum and after that we went to town to shop cos i saw the woodstock tee in Uniqlo in HK but there wasn't my size so i wanted to get it in SG.

bought the shirt and then went to shop for more cute stuff at PS :D

saw this bag and my mum was like 'NO!' even before i said anything hahahahahahahah!

i think she knows me too well :x #foreversuckedinbywoodstockandpolkadotsandredthings

my backpack is spoilt from HK (actually not spoilt la but the inner layer is peeling) so i want to get a new one. MCM? ^^ i alr told jace to help me check it in US. if not when I go Korea in July I'll get it!

so i'm not sure if everyone's bf/bro has been sucked in by this lousy game called Diablo 3.

LOL it's the stupidest thing on earth cos bf plays it non-stop daily!

wake up play liao. last thing he does before sleeping is also play this.

60 levels nia wanna play how many times!?

ytd we went to CK's place to watch the Champions League final and the entire time before the match started the guys were all playing this -.-" yucky games.

met up with the Bahasa peeps on Tuesday before ~~my worst nightmare~~ Hidaya flew off to Hainan for 3 weeks.

funny like hell mad love them <3

esp Victor and Teng Wen with their nonsense chatter hahahaha!

Mas Hidaya before she goes to Tiong land

so Eelin was sending me this weblink that replicated Lao Ban's tau huay receipe and I went to try it hahaha!

I don't dare to let other people try cos even though the smell and after taste is the same, the initial taste is different! maybe I should fine tune the way I do this la.

if I do I'll be uber rich muahahahahaha!

so anyway there are so many things I would love to do (now alot of time but I lazy to do wtf right) like for example:

1. Be a domestic goddess like Nigella Lawson

2. Be a fantastic guitar player so I can be cool

3. Learn the art of SLR and be a pro photographer (possible career path if I succeed)

4. Relearn Korean and Japanese so that I can up my language skills and possibly get higher paying jobs

5. Nua and hope a job falls on my lap after awhile :x

6. Strike TOTO 1st prize and not share with other people the pot

ok i'm rambling already :x

just this week I caught 2 movies!

What to expect when you're expecting + 21 Jump Street!

Bought the McDonalds Hello Kitty doll after watching What to expect when you're expecting on Thursday after the movie by forcing bf to have supper at macs.

Mad cute right?!

went shopping with Grace on Friday before our chicken rice steamboat date with the rest.

was super hungry and I finally tried I (heart) taimei!

wah the Sour Plum Sweet Potato damn shiok! must try!

didn't like the drink (some passionfruit thingy) though.

the chicken was good :D

so finally tried the chicken rice steamboat Grace is always raving about at Golden Mile Tower.
it's nice! go try people hahahaha! something different but a lil ex.
and go early cos uber crowded! we were damn lucky to get our table cos it was slightly empty before the dinner crowd came.

bestie's birthday on Thursday and we had Sushi Tei for lunch at Holland V cos we wanted to go NTU Alumni to sing k.

mad happy for her! she finally got a job :D

i cannot believe i witnessed her accepting the job *cries tears of joy*

she has been searching like mad for a suitable job and i'm really really really happy she finally got a job she likes.

whereas for me...... *emo*

haix. i honestly have no idea what i wanna do with my life.

today my dad showed me an article on whether people wanted to be a Wealth Creator or Wealth Manager.

i've always thought myself to be a Wealth Creator.

my life was full of brightness in poly where I was happy in what I was studying.

I really understood the joy of learning and feeling passion for it.

yet now, having gone through NUS, I'm just really a lost soul searching for something that I feel is long gone from me.

really hope someone can give me a direction soon.

okay, less emo talk.

gonna watch my last ep of Rooftop Prince before I catch up on my Running Man episodes lol.

peace.

소주,맥주,막거리 and.... 박하탕!

Thursday, May 03, 2012 || 12:44 AM

listening to Sistar's 'Alone' as i type this entry. super addictive song, go listen! :D

feeling abit woozy too cos drank too much alcohol T.T LOL

today is a v happening day wohoo~

woke up late but die also must change my HKD today if not i don't have time alr.

plus mum always says that we should change our foreign currency on Wednesdays cos the rate damn good (dunno what logic but i just follow hahaha!)

and true enough, TODAY HKD DAMN GOOD THE RATE :D /happy

bf went to pick up some stuff and we passed by Antoinette's at Lavender that area.

everyone must go and try their macaroons! so bloody nice! altho ex :x i did spend $16 on 6 pieces :/

so yummy om nom nom nom~ hahaha! cos i had macaroon craving a couple of weeks back already so bf was like 'just go buy the macaroons while i go pick up some documents' yahoo!

after that went to change my $$ and... discovered treasure hahaha! I FOUND ANOTHER OUTLET OF LAO BAN SOYA BEAN CURD! :D at raffles place mrt~ by accident somemore. really machiam strike lottery leh lol.

so..... macaroon craving + lao ban tau huay craving all fulfilled in a day! :D

i'm ashamed to say i bought 15 at one go cos i treated my tutee's family to 5 and i gave my grandma they all another 5. kept the rest for myself!!!! (and my bf la of cos but all mine wahahahaha!)

so rushed from raffles place to tanjong pagar to give my mum the tau huay then rush to woodlands and then down to Woorinara cos i was meeting Sinhui & Jace for dinner! :D

poor bf was my driver but nvm la, since i'm his maid. we're even now! LOL

after dinner went to Sinhui's house to chill and bought a bunch of Korean alcohol (look below)

and the crazy girls saw the 박하탕 at the mart and bought it.

FYI 박하탕 is the sweet in Rooftop Prince that Yoochun made Park Ha eat lol.

for some reason we always like to pretend we're part of the drama.

last time did the foam kiss from Secret Garden now Rooftop Prince.

wait we Yeon Woo and Hwon and Yang Myeong Gun ok next time? O.O

1st time see her so high over whipped cream

she has a dark secret: she was once addicted to whipped cream lol

evidence hahaha!

major fun with the girls cos i haven't seen them in ages! think the last time was SJ's concert in feb lor.

hahaha and take stupid pics like (look above) dafuq ahhaha no face already but i'm like semi drunk already right now.

anw more fun things to come tmr cos i'm having MEATBALLS!!!! *runs like a Ravin Rabbid*

just something random: i want a minion for my birthday this year lol!

i keep telling my bf that. hope he really gets me a minion for my bday hahaha!

My phone is my life

Wednesday, May 02, 2012 || 12:28 AM

am bloody bored these days (hence the increase in blog entries) due to unemployment.

somehow i have more 'me' time now than ever, heck i could finish a bloody k-drama in a day lor without having to worry about waking up late the next day.

did i mention i caught up on all my Running Man episodes that i was lagging behind within a day #otakugirl

hahaha! anw pics from the last day of exams :D

went out with the chem buddies to holland v for lunch after TM.

i think i was kinda cranky cos i woke up uber early that day to revise but couldn't remember shit anyways.

had everything with fries :D

shared this with kee :) cos i wasn't hungry

anw not v nice also :x

group pic :) <3 my NUS buddies alot :D

after that juyin and alvin went home but i had alot of time to kill before tuition so i wanted to just stay out la even though i was sleepy like max. $ v impt these days given my unemployment state ugh.

sooooooo ervin suggested going to this place at holland v behind some building.

HAHAHAH funny how i never knew such a place existed before :x

brownie :D

the ice cream was nice! i had the brownie together with the hazelnut ice cream despite my sore throat.

nvm, just whack. paid the price the next day cos i had to go see a doc due to my sore throat and flu.

plus i didn't want to fall sick in HK so better get more fluids in!

here's a pic of my childish bf who was sitting in the children's section reading some Avengers book lol.
oh did i mention we watched Avengers today? :D it's sooooooooooooooooooo good! my fav is now Capt America even though I liked Thor's movie most out of all la. Iron Man was just pffffffft.
kept nudging bf whenever Capt appeared on screen cos he's sooooooo cute /insert lovey eyes
hahah! after that we went to I12 Katong to meet up with Nicole after so long!
omg it was just so awesome sitting there and talking about shit stuff after so long.
happy :)

had Ramen Play for dinner then Max Brennar for dessert.
the waffles was to die for seriously! Apple Pie and Cinnamon waffles :D
shiokkkkkkk :D feeling extremely sinful but nvm la, tmr try and run i think.
on monday i attempted to be more healthy and started to do some skipping rope at home while watching Discovery & Health channel (more on that later).
wah lau i started for like 10 mins then.... gave up and walked to the fridge and took out my Royce chocolates, ate all the last 8 pieces, drank my Pokka green tea and flopped on the bed. #likeaboss
HOW TO DIET LIKE THAT YOU TELL ME!? wanted to lose some weight before i put on more in HK :x
tmr meeting my girls for woorinara, thurs going IKEA for meatballs and friday going buffet with Dream Team LOL.
ok that's it, diet starts after HK!!!!!! grrrrrrrrr.

ThankUBigBang

Monday, April 30, 2012 || 3:05 PM

I LOVE YOU BIG BANG!

THANK YOU FOR ALL THE LOVE FOR ALL THE VIPS ALL AROUND THE WORLD :D

MEGA CYBER HUG

P.S: MY CHOI TABI I LOVE YOU

P.S.S: MY KWON GD YOUR HAIRSTYLE IS REALLY JJANG

P.S.S.S: YOUNG BEAR BEAR, DAESUNGIE AND SEUNGLI :)

Pensive

|| 2:11 AM

it's the middle of the night now. 1.48 am to be exact.

just came home from a day of shopping with bf and mum.

quite satisfying actually even though i felt bad spending my mum's $$ :x

i mean who gets guilty over such things? does that mean i have to be guilty for the rest of my life given the amount of $ she has paid for me over the past 23 years? that'd be FUBAR seriously.

anw am in a very pensive mood now, hiding outside in my living room instead of being in my room in the presence of the bf because he made me quite sad just now.

sad not because he did something bad to me, but i'm just sick and tired of being his maid.

guess no one prepared me for this living together shit.

Disney and Pixar and what not should totally do a film that shows that guys are not as perfect as they are in the film.

even if they are jerks at the beginning, they always end up the same seriously. don't bluff already ok!

i'm honestly just... sick and tired of picking up his shit seriously.

when a person is born with a silver spoon in his mouth, do not expect him to do his own housework period.

i'm serious. everyday i come home it's either a pair of socks (or 5 maybe) lying somewhere around in my room, on my bed, on the floor, beside my computer table etc anywhere it shouldn't be and not in the laundry basket.

took out his dirty soccer clothes from my toilet just minutes ago because Master Marcelo doesn't bother to bring his clothes from the bathroom to put into the laundry basket 10 steps away. i mean he does, when he remembers that is. but that's kinda rare.

plus he doesn't switch off the light + heater from the toilet. it really irks me alot.

cos everytime i do that i get a earful from my dad. for some reason, he doesn't catch bf doing that.

and i'm always cleaning up his shit for him seriously.

i do the dishes after he eats, he wants water i get it for him.. hell i even picked up his shoes (FYI he brings out 3 pairs just to go soccer: 1 pair of slippers, 1 pair of soccer boots and 1 pair of normal shoes) and placed them onto the racks for him.

i have bloody OCD for god's sake. after 6 years of being together you do that know this?! i mean a little dirt here and there is fine but you do that leave a eaten box of hokkien mee beside my computer for 3 days without throwing it away seriously (yes, he did that -.-")

and he does all day is click his fkin HON game. it pissed me off a couple of instances alr.

guess the uni peeps would know cos i was complaining on whatsapp abt it.

just friday, when he promised me that he'd bring me go town to shop cos i wanted to go get the Hunger Games trilogy i was like preparing to go out at say.... 6.50pm.

so the great bf tells me, ok let's leave at 7.20 when you're done cos i was putting on make-up.

i'm all done by 7.05pm then i patiently wait as he finishes his game. and then i waited.

and waited. and waited even more. till 8 fucking pm.

we were supposed to watch Battleship at 9pm, tickets booked already and all with NO DINNER IN OUR EMPTY STOMACHS.

i guess since my hormones got the better of me what with me having my period i just got all pissed off.

thank goodness he had the decency to feel guilty about it. and not go all angsty at me. if he did it'd prob be a repeat of the previous argument.

so anyhow, i honestly think this whole gaming shit, not wanting to help around the house is really getting to me.

how do you tell a guy who has a mum who prob did everything for him the moment he was born, had 3 maids at a point serving him since he was 7 years old until aged 22 to wake up his idea and just do the fucking housework? not do a Maria or Leticia Bongnino but just making life easier by taking the initiative of putting things where they ought to be.

socks do not wash on their own, cups and plates and cutlery do not magically turn clean and shiny overnight, clothes do not walk by themselves to the laundry basket (you think wat, Fantasia issit?) cos someone has to bloody do it.

it's not to say i'm selfish, i don't wanna do anything for him. but try doing it every day for 6 months. with no gratitude and what not. i'm just... tired really.

so how? if anyone who is reading this has any idea, please tell me.

the whole point of this entry is not to showcase how bad my bf is cos i love him to bits. but everyone has their own shitty sides (me included of cos) and it's just really getting to me.

i simply cannot put up with this shit no further. and the whole gaming shit has to tone down. i'm absolutely fucking serious!

alright enough ranting.

shall head to bed soon and begin my resume sending tomorrow.

somehow after my paper on wednesday i just had this phobia of opening jobsdb and what not.. cos i know that if i send out those emails, something's bound to occur. and prob change my life forever.

i'm just not ready >.<

so just something random to cheer myself up - Dream Team's convo on fb last week haha!

can't wait for Friday! i've lined up a whole bunch of activities before HK wohooooooooo!
god bless us for this trip and make me meet someone famous or some hot guy ask me out also can hahahahah! *daydreaming*
nevertheless, sg's weather is getting from warm to just plain melting temperature.
my AC is perpetually on. it's a bloody vicious cycle people. how to cut down on global warming liddat!? pffft.
kthxbye timetosleep.

Peanut Tart

Sunday, April 22, 2012 || 10:05 PM

1 more paper till I ORD

|| 12:54 AM

1 paper down! 1 more to go *beams* (secretly wants to burn all my biomolecules notes hehehehe)

major scare in the morning cos CTE to AYE jam all the way and i only left home at 12-ish when my paper was at 1 cos bf say don't go so early.

thank the traffic god and LTA and whatever gods who helped me reach there on time at 12.45pm *prays*

all these: ctrl + alt + del :D

i actually left the exam hall earlier. i'm serious. first time ever in my life.

ervin went out even earlier than me hahaha! juyin handed in her paper before me.

after that went to grace's house to prepare for ck's surprise BBQ birthday party at ECP :D

actually, more like we just go there and be security guard.

food come, pay $ and collect.

ice come, collect and keep in styrofoam box.

then we sat there and stoned.

i'm serious, for 3 hours :x

venue of the day

attempting to hang up the banner

clearly i'm just there to eye power lol since i probably can't reach that tree also -.-" i know my own limits

tadah! nice anot? ck's gf xf made it herself :D between you and me,i won't do it for my bf. i'll just... figure out something less tedious hahaha!

so while waiting most of us played games with our phones and then suddenly, the other 3 (grace, trevor and bf) got excited finding my white hair and started cutting them D:

i was playing snoopy's street fair haha!

machiam monkey looking for fleas leh :/

the couple doing work while..

...lazy ass here playing where's my water lol!

ck's gf xiufeng! :D main organizer

she ordered so much food OMG

lol slowly everyone arrived then... turns out we all have no plan on how to surprise him? :/ kinda weird i know but in the end he was quite surprised i guess?

blueberry cake from cedele. cedele has nice cakes! noms!

ta-dah! birthday boy arrived after pre-drinking at a bar with william and ong. then later we all just pretended not to notice him and somehow... LOL he came and we shouted surprise! super random hahahahahaha! why we always no plan our surprises!? >.<

ok mad tired now cos exams sucks and i just had a BBQ straight after my paper man.
tmr double tuition :( so kinda half my day is gone. hope i have the motivation to study.
2 more distractions tmr: star awards + absolute darling.
EVERYONE GO AND WATCH ABSOLUTE DARLING!! JIRO IS DARN FUNNY AND SO IS KUNDA HAHAHAH! ALL FROM MY CHILDHOOD :D
ok i have no idea why i typed in CAPS.
time to shower. kthxbye.